mad medley

i never thought that i would turn up really mad..
i hate it at times like this.

i dont know bout u all, but, have u ever feel really2 mad. sampe tangan ketar2 nahan marah. n the best thing to do in your mind is breaking things.
but even u do break something, its not enuff. then u started to punch the wall, any wall infront of ur eyes. but still not enuff.

u might think that uve done so much things to please everyone. but believe me, it was never enuf.
in fact, u dont have to think about it at all. coz wat people see on u was only the shite part of u. and what ever uve done was not matter anymore.

i really dont like to be angry or mad. it was just not my style. but when someone has tempted me, in the way that they dont meant it, but they themselves dont really meant to tempt me, that would makes me turn up to be a mindless heartless madman. even makes me feel like i want to run amok.
i dont really take it badly he or she made a mistake. but when they just take it for granted, they better dont show their face in front of me for the next few hours or days. its not that im afraid of them. not that im afraid to be mad. im just afraid that i cant control myself when im mad..

im not really a decent man. but i dont like to hate people. maybe in some circumstances that makes me n some person cant go along. like ive said, i dont like to hate people. so dont trigger me, coz its the last thing you would like to think about.

huh. my mind still restless. shite.